idontwanttoanymore

I want to sail myself on unkind waves
Tragically spiralling alone of frigid salt water
And drown peerless and forlorn

Compared to where I am
A voyage to anywhere else is far better
Because anywhere else is away from you

I hope where I’m headed to be cold
Cold enough to be anesthetic
Then maybe the iron in my blood would have froze

I have loved but love kept in distance and unanswered
The kind piece of shits like me only knows
But I have inattentively made you a necessity I can’t get rid of

I am still veins anchored to a ship I don’t want to be a part of
Tethered. Close to rupture. Still unrequited. Unsold

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Hold on
Please
Just a moment

Let me have one last shot
At a farewell controlled

This needs no subtlety or fancy phrasing

Please let me stop loving her first

Before I have to usher the best thing I have to someone else